Title: A Soul On Fire

Gender: Female

Age: 21

Sun Sign: Libra

Chinese Sign: Earth Dragon

I have a Zaadz because I think alot on serious matters. I won't necessarily talk from a religious point, but I do have a Huge desire to help change the world into a better place and a huge desire to inspire more love,  and I share with you my personal thoughts. I myself like to go to places that are more dark. Other may not like to venture there, but that is where I feel most comfortable and feel i can do the most good. That is why i chose url 'lightinthedarkness'. I am an artist. I love to design tattoos for people. If you want one even Id love to design a tattoo for you! lol I'll put a link to my artwork on here. Artwork is what has many times kept me from losing my mind in times of anger, depression, pain. That is why, I think, my artwork is so dark. I relate, and share compassionately in the feelings of rebellion and revenge, even though I don't endorse those behaviors. I'm a metal girl. I love heavy metal music and the entire culture that comes along with it. So rock on! here's a lil bit about me……

art:
http://rottenone.deviantart.com

My Grestest Fear:

I was watching a comedy movie with my friends called Click. Adam Sandler stars in it, as well as Christopher Walken. I, at first, alway think it's silly to find a life inspiration from something like a movie, which was created in the purposes of simply entertaining. But I realized that life changes can be inspired by anything. And I have to constantly remind myself of that. The story shows a man who, given the ability, starts to fast forward through his life, skipping all the hard things he doesn't want to do and living only the things he enjoys. But after a certain point his life started fast-forwarding all on its own, and he was no longer in control. He started missing really important things. Years started to pass by, and before he knew it, he was on his deathbed. Only then was he finally able to show how much he truely loved his family, and all that was important in his life. Of course in the movie once he had experienced this epiphony, he wakes up and he's right back at the point in his life before any of the fast-forwarding started happening. And because of it, not a moment in his life goes by that doesn't have some sort of meaning or beautiful memory.

This is how I strive to live my life, outside of this fear. And ever since I had this realization I have been more … happy. I know that this may not necessarily be a universal key to happiness, but it definately helps my soul, and I hope to see others striving to live 'Larger-Than-Life.' :D

My Greatest Hate:

I was triggered to a train of thought the other day by two things. One was a myspace bulletin I came across about child abuse. It was very simple, not very many text words. But there were a few pictures that spoke at least a thousand words each. My heart sank to see what grown people were capable of doing to children. There is nothing in the world so painful to me as this; child abuse. I have the most passionate rage towards anyone who will participate in it or endorse it. The other thing that triggered my train of thought was a small thing, something that upset me, but in itself has no real importance. As I was then going about my day, my mind went to all kinds of places in my imagination.  I now know that if I were to witness child abuse out in the open I would not hesitate to do everything in my power stop that person. And I know I would want to hurt that person too. That is why I hope it never happens because I would not have the patience to wait for the legal system to take care of it. And I am not exxagerating. I may be an eighteen year old girl, but I'm not small and I'm pretty strong. And I cannot stress enough how much I DO hate violence, and that it is not an answer to anything. But that only proves my own personal uncontrollable rage, and how much I hate child abuse. Even though I know it's the right thing to do, I would not be able to help myself. I know this because just thinking about it, made my adrenaline pump so hard from getting so angry at these thoughts I had that my hands went sweaty and cold, and my body was almost numb. I had no control over the rage which sort took control over me and I had to immediately stop what I was doing and go for a run. And I can tell you now it was the most intense run I've ever done, because I'd never felt such intense emotions before. I do not believe in encouraging thoughts that lead to hate, but this will always remain the one exception for myself. I can never stop asking the question, “What would bring a person to harm a child?” because I will never understand an answer.

My Geatest Desire:

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My mom is a beautiful, inspiring lady who makes out-of-this-world music. You can find her zaadz here:
http://meditationmusic.zaadz.com

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